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“Every artist is a cannibal,
every poet is a thief,
All kill their inspiration,
and sing about their grief”

Achtung Baby! is a reinvention when it was not needed at all. When, riding high on the success of “The Joshua Tree”, U2 could have explored that music further and could have tasted easy success with the “tried and tested” formula- They simply abandoned it. And that they did for good. Achtung baby is an all time favorite. Nothing is like it.

Less political than the Joshua tree and more adventurous than any of their albums, Achtung Baby comes like a breath of fresh air. Its evergreen music. Its infinitely inventive. Its something never heard before.

“She wears my love like a see thru dress-
her lips say something, her movements something else”

“one” and “so cruel” explore the emotions of a betrayed heart. “the fly” explores basic human weaknesses as Larry with his drums and Adam Clayton with the bass guitar seem to agree with what Bono says in the song. The rock and roll is gone and makes way for some electronica (which is further explored in Zooropa, U2’s next album). “Mysterious ways” with some HipHop which U2 has never tried before.

The album was worked upon for a period of 2 years, in Dublin and Berlin, hence the name Achtung Baby!. With the Berlin wall coming down and Edge’s marriage breakdown, comes an album that evoked thefts of the stuidio recorded tapes while it was recorded in secrecy, besides being of a musical nature that was a challenge to U2 themselves and their fans. Larry confessed, in one of the interviews, that midway of the recording they felt “oh my god, what have we done- this has gone terribly wrong”. But it was not to be. The kind of success U2 enjoyed with Achtung Baby!, and that too at a point of their career where they were already recognised with a kind of music, they got a success typical to a brand new band’s with a brand new album.

“In the garden I was playing the tart
I kissed your lips and broke your heart
You, you were acting like it was the end of the world “

The first time when U2 came to my ears was in the year 2000, about 24 years after the band’s formation and a complete 19 years after I was born. I had purchased this collection called, The music of the millenium. It was a two tape set and had some really good artists like Elton John’s “Candle in the Wind”, Queen’s “We are the champions” and Robbie Williams with Millennium.. Among them, was a song, called “With or without you” by U2. Ofcourse, as a western music listener, I had heard of U2 but never actually listened to their music. My kind of music, at that time, mostly revolved around the likes of Bryan Adams, Robbie williams and Boyzone. I remember, I was a great fan of Bryan Adams album, MTv Unplugged. So much that the first tape I had got had been used so much that it wouldnt play anymore.

Ofcourse, now as I see it, people into rock completely despise the kind of music bands like Boyzone or Backstreet Boys come up with. Its the same old mush and the love songs. As a 19 year old, I could’nt be blamed- I loved that music. And I admit, of all the boybands, I still love Boyzone. Ronan Keating comes up with amazing lyrics. I still havent got over with Boyzone’s music, though rock is more the preferred flavor now. But a few lines of a Boyzone song are enough to arouse the romantic poet in me. For a lot of my romantic poems which have been appreciated, the inspiration to get up and write them was by Boyzone.

“with or without you” was(and is) the perfect song, for a prospective U2 fan to listen to and explore the kind of music U2 has to offer. When I listened to that song- It generated a feeling- It was exactly the kind of music, I had been longing to hear since I had started listening to music- and I am not exaggerating here. I admit, I was not able to understand what the lyrics of the song meant. ” I cant live- with or without you”. But if you listen to U2 songs, you will come to understand, as I did, that there is always a deeper meaning into it. Infact, a very very deep meaning. I was astounded when I dared to imagine, how much research must Bono be doing before he actually sits down to write the first line of any song. Its tremendous. Its got to be tremendous. This is the stuff bands like U2 are made of.

My first U2 buy was the then latest album- All that you cant leave behind. That was, what I felt, a “silent” album. The music was never important in it. Atleast it did not feel to me that way. The songs were mostly focussing on the current human race problems- bombings in North Ireland- infact the song “peace on earth” was based on that. “Grace”, “When I look at the world” , “walk on” were songs which were based on human problems and deriving inspiration. The album fetched U2 some grammys. Infact I remember making my decision to buy the album after I saw Bono with the grammys in his hand, in a photo published in the Economic Times. I enjoyed the album thoroughly, listening to it all over again and again. That was also the time, when Robbie Williams had released, what I consider, his best initiative to music till date- the album- Sing when you are winning. Though the music styles of both of them are completely different- for me, it was a combination that stuck me to those two tapes for almost 6 months.

There are two basic characters about U2 which I feel, should be described. These are based on my own personal experiences. First, U2 has no style. They may carry the genre of a rock band but you never know they can come out with an album which is everything but rock. Starting with Rock and Roll they moved on to Classic slow rock in the Joshua tree to something never tried before in Achtung Baby, which is my all time favorite, to electronica in Zooropa and to disco-rock with Pop. U2 says, they have a better picture and an idea of what kind of music they dont want to make rather than having the idea of the kind of music they want to make. Such ideology, leads to a broad vision. Second, their lyrics is never positive. U2 is the last band you would want to goto when you are searching for happiness in their baggage of meaningful lyrics. Their songs may start from very negative and move towards little negative or little negative to somewhat positive attitude, but never it is a happy ending. Songs like “peace on earth”, “Love comes tumbling”, “one”, “pride” are classic examples that prove my observation. But I guess this is the characterstic of most of the Rock bands- and U2 does it best !

To be continued…

Originally from my first blog, this post was written in the wee hours of Friday, the 22nd of August 2003.

I do not know if this is true for you, but have you ever wondered and noticed that there are some people (in the media) whom you have seen all your life? From your earliest memories to this day- these “stars” have ACTUALLY been there, entertaining you? Can you imgaine how would it be when they go away, fade out? Will you miss them, in one way or the other?

Having difficulty in understanding what I am saying? Ok, I will give you some examples. For any 20-something year old person, I feel these are some of the people who have always been a part of the media:

1> Sachin Tendulkar: Since I have been watching cricket, he is playing.
2>Juhi Chawla: She is gorgeous! and the best part is, she never seems to age !! yesterday I watched 3 deewarein. and what a movie it is. I saw juhi perform after soo many years and at the moment she doesnt even look a wee bit different !!!
3>Bryan Adams: his music, his face, his voice- just the same as it was when I first heard him.

There are many people like that. Somehow somewhere, they are a part of our life. Because they have been there, we dont notice them. We will only notice this fact once they retire from their profession. Hats off, to these entertainers!

” When you are 16, you think you can take on the world.

And Sometimes you are right.”

-Bono

I despise it when people call computer programmers “nerds” or “computer-worms” or any similar thing for that matter. Staring at the computer screen all days and speaking a jargon which is understood by less does not make anyone a nerd. Anf furthermore, I really dont like it when these same people close themselves so much that a simple thing related to computer technology, which is easy to explain in plain english- is not listened to by them just because they think its too “techie” and hence it would go over their heads.

We are computer programmers. If we do not “stare” at the computer all day we wont be working. Programming and computing is our bread and butter. We have studied and struggled to be where we are, just like all of you economists, artists, scientists and jouralists. Our profession is no different in terms of struggles and the fight we put up – its just like all of you.

Computing and Programming is a science, just like chemistry and physics. The only difference I can think of is that it is much more diverse and complexities are at the core. ( I am not saying that chemistry and physics are less-complex per se) Its just that the term “nerd” and “geek” attributes more easily to computing, which I think is wrong.

Recently Mr Gavaskar was invited to deliver the Colin Cowdrey lecture. Surprising as it was, it came into account that he was very much irritated and disappointed by the sledging going on in the game. Surprising because, Mr Gavaskar himself admits, it was only once or maybe twice that he had actually experienced this bitter truth of modern day cricket. But a topic like this, I feel, could only be put up by someone as bold as Mr Gavaskar. South Africans, Australians, Kiwis or the Eglishmen would never raise the issue. The reason is simple. Because they do it themselves.

Though the little master originally blamed Australia as the only side using it, I think sledging certainly goes beyond the aussies. Later, rightly so, Mr Gavaskar agreed that it was even the Indian team that had been sledging and putting up verbal abuse. But I think the Indians (read Asians, or better, blacks i.e, India, Pakistan and Srilanka) do not have any further options to counter it. Pleading against the worlds greatest cricket authority, ICC has never been fruitful, however good and justified the reason may be. If the asians do it, they get fined but if the whites do it, its in the rule. Descrimination goes on, till this day. And the irony is, that most of the revenue generated by cricket is from the three big cricketing giants of Asia. No, not Australia and not even England. Sledging will go on, with or without Steven Waugh telling his players to try and stop it. Steve is one of the very few cricketers I have huge respect for. I know, if it were all in Steve’s hands this would not have been going on. But now that the australians have made sledging a part of the game, I think the asians have no other option than to start listening to Eminem songs and jot down the insults to keep themselves updated on this core issue. And in Saurav Ganguly, it seems, we have a perfectly capable leader to do so. (remember the shirt-off-look-at-my-chest-and-the-so-many-gold-chains scene in the Natwest final? )

All the best boys. And well done Mr Gavaskar. I had never seen you bat on the ground. But yes, off the ground you are a gem.

To start with, I think I ought to tell everyone about myself. I am Aditya Kumar. My ID on rediff is truman. I had made this ID in the starting days of rediff.com. It was inspired by the main character “truman burbank” of the movie “The Truman Show”. It may sound suprising, but before the movie was released, all through my childhood I had always felt that I was being watched and it was “telecasted” somewhere “outside” one way or the other. So when Truman Show came, I thought, “Hey, thats exactly my idea!” and add to it, I had lived that idea all my life. I still do. Who knows, while I am typing this, you people are watching me somewhere. (!!!) But seriously, I do not think so strongly about this idea as I did 5 years ago.

I am a computer programmer and I am 22 years old. I completed my 12th in 1998 from New Delhi. My father is in the Indian Navy so we always moved around India. Till now, we have been posted to Vizag, Goa, Karanja (off Bombay), New Delhi, and Goa again. My school days at Karanja were good in terms of academics. But as soon as I left the place for Delhi I found it extremely difficult to adjust myself there. My academics went down and I struggled badly, for the rest of my 4 years in school. During that time, I came to terms with myself- that I was not as good in studies as I was in my childhood.

I have always been a loner. I never had friends in school. One of the reasons was my fathers frequent postings but the major reason was me, myself. I was (and am) a quiet person. And when I have tried to come over it, I have falled hard. Being free (read normal) with speech is something I have tried many times and given up. Due to this, I did not have a normal childhood. My social life has always been very very limited. Anyway, due to the bad times and experiences with people in my childhood itself, I became more quiet and “scared”. I spent most of my time reading books and drawing. Later when I grew up, poetry and writing were added to the list.

Besides my family, the only good thing about my childhood was the Navy. I grew up between Ships and submarines. For me, there was no other career option other than the Indian Navy. By 13, I had memorized most of the ship classes and the ship numbers of the Bombay Naval Base fleet.
But I never tried for the navy. When it mattered the most, Navy was not an option for me. I think, one of the reasons for this was that by the time I was in a position to decide my career, we were in New Delhi and it had been 4 years leaving Bombay. I had lost my touch and lost the ingredients needed to drive a passion.

I had decided to persue Computer Science after my school and it was a decision taken totally based on the passion I had developed for the computer field. In a way, Navy’s loss was Computer’s gain. I never took up Computer Science because it was the “in-thing” then. I should say, most people at that time I knew took up the subject because it was the “in-thing”. Because it had money. If I would have been interested being an railway engine driver or for that matter anybody-in-any-field at that time, I would have gladly persued my dream, though my mother would have had different ideas about my career. And surely some strong comments about me being an engine driver.

So here I am. I took up BCA from Indore and MCM from Pune. I have been staying away from my family now for more than 5 years. I have so much to say about my years out that I can write a book on that subject. Surely, it would be a bestseller because it would be well received by the readers, since I would be the only reader. Anyway, I am working in a company which specialises in Computer Security. My basic interest lies in Cryptography and soon I am about to persue a pHD in the same subject. So much for some who was never good in studies in his last 4 years in school and had let his parents down during the final 12th results. Am I lucky to get to a point where I REALLY want to persue my Phd? Is it my determination and I do not know it? I dont know the answers.

There will be more about Myself. I need to write about myself before I can take on the topic for which it is meant for. But first, some time for myself ! I think I deserve some space !!